I wrote this little article already more than one week ago…
But now, after suffering a health relapse and being in bed on the drip again, I feel it is time to share it.
My dear friends…
I have spent the last three weeks pretty much in solitude. I didn’t see more than a very few familiar faces, slept a lot and tried to drop back into my body.
My plea for help has travelled all around the world and I have gained many new wonderful and engaged followers and friends. What an incredible blessing!!!! Some of you may not be quite aware of the actual purpose of The Moto Quest.
I have started this journey to find healing for a chronic condition that the doctors have given up on many years ago… Additionally to that weakened immune system of mine, has this whole current illness depleted my energy a lot… Since almost 15 years now, have I managed to almost completely avoid any form of Western medicine and gained my current quality of life through alternative and holistic curative practices, spirituality and self-healing. I was only 15 years old when I entered that new mysterious path and I have tried, seen and done a lot, which some of would be hard to grasp for many human minds.
After three different kind of antibiotics for an extended period of time, IV painkillers for weeks, other numerous medication and an air conditioned hospital room, in which I wasn’t even able to see the sky, I am feeling incredibly disconnected to my body and my spirit.
(Please don’t misunderstand! My attitude and thoughts are healthy and sparkle happily! What I am speaking about ensues on a deeper, more sensitive level.)
I did decide to share my very personal journey with you; my emotions, experiences and observations of self and my environment, to hopefully not only find healing for only me but to spread love and the beauty of life all around the planet.
Until the fundraising, I have not been aware of how many hearts TMQ has touched already in such a short time. Receiving all your blessings, reading your words, personal stories, and how my quest has influenced your life to one degree or another, has truly affected me deeply. I have been thinking about the last 12 months a lot, took this moment to “pull over” and reflect… Something that is hard to do when you are on the road with new impressions and occurrences every day, which it takes to absorb and process. My most recent trip through Java was so full of action, events and new people… A wonderful experience that I am deeply grateful for!!!
Now I am craving silence and lonesomeness.
I am in an interesting sensitive and vulnerable place of growth and reflection at the moment… A quiet one. A for me, very new space. I am not only looking back at my adventure but carefully studying the lessons that the road has taught me. I want to write down many stories, which are so far only in my heart. I have a lot to share with you, but until then, there is so much writing to catch up on.
Also will I have to make new plans of how to continue my quest according to my conditions…
This is me-time.
I am still facing a lengthy journey until I have my full physical health and strength restored and I wish to go that way in silence; reduce external noise to be able to reconnect with my inner voice and the voice of the Great Spirit.
I know the road will wait for me and I hope you will, too.