After my little world changed unexpectedly about 8 months ago, I found myself in an incredibly challenging and painful situation. Life forced me to change gear. It encouraged me to start thinking about the meaning of existence again. Even though I have always been chasing my dreams I've maintained my childlike sense of wonder and curiosity. I kept myself so busy in an everyday routine that I didn’t take time for pit stops; to look at the map and the road I was on…
Life kicked me out of the saddle and after a time of grieving and alteration of myself, I am getting myself back on it – well, I should say “back on the road”.
I invite you to follow me…
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“For now she need not think of anybody. She could be herself, by herself. And that was what now she often felt the need of – to think; well not even to think. To be silent; to be alone. All the being and the doing, expansive, glittering, vocal, evaporated; and one shrunk, with a sense… Read More
Last weekend about 30 girls on motorcycles turned heads while throttling through Melbourne towards Warrandyte via Diamond Creek and Kangaroo Ground. Sunday morning’s meeting point was at Kustom Kommune in Collingwood and it was a slightly different atmosphere in the stylish old factory building than I had experienced before. Female giggles and laughers mixed with… Read More
Being back in Melbourne has been intense in many ways… Re-connecting to my old life, recognising my new and transformed self in it, while healing old stories and making peace with the fact that I couldn’t gain the so desired residency here. Knowing that this time I am just a “visitor” in a country that I… Read More
I am wishing all of you the most wonderful year 2015! May it be filled with sprinkles of madness and a great dose of magic! May you have the courage to be your authentic self and not to let fear stop you from doing what you love. Make time for solitude. Be willing to fail sometimes,… Read More
To all my wonderful friends around the globe, I hope you and your families are enjoying a blissful festive season filled with gratitude, joy and love. May these days be full of harmony and sparkling moments for you; wherever you are, whoever you with and under which ever circumstances. In the six years that I… Read More
I wrote this little article already more than one week ago… But now, after suffering a health relapse and being in bed on the drip again, I feel it is time to share it. My dear friends… I have spent the last three weeks pretty much in solitude. I didn’t see more than a… Read More
Always when I come across a little offering tray here in Bali, it feels to me like the whole cosmos is in these little baskets, called ‘canang sari ‘. The more special it feels, to find them in front of my door and around the house, when coming home this afternoon. The ritual of Offering… Read More
Last night was Kajeng Kliwon, an especially important day for both the positive and negative aspects of the world, on which the superstitious nature of the Balinese is much more evident. Every fifteen days, extra offerings are made in the house compound to appease the bad spirits and to protect from black magic. Wayan, my… Read More
It all started with a dream and a blank page in front of me. One year ago. Not only in my journal… My whole life was a like an empty piece of paper, after it had complete collapsed in only a couple of weeks and was calling to be created new! I dared to scribble… Read More
“Yes, the money is something that was so urgently needed and I asked and wondered a lot, why life puts me in such a desperate situation right now; when things just finally started to roll smoothly!
I didn’t think I would find the answer to that lesson so fast…
Reaching out for help and witnessing this incredible wave of healing energy and kindness, of support, love and generosity buzzing all around the world to get me out of this situation, is something that has extended all my old belief systems, all these self-set boundaries and my faith in humanity and what’s REALLY possible!
I was praying for a little bit of magic in my life and this is exactly what you have transferred into my account. Every word, every wish, every blessing and every name that appeared on the screen are pure energy that leaves me in tears of gratitude, inconceivability, my heart flooded with love and my body illuminated with the most healing energy!”
I hope you can spare 7’17 min, to watch this little video:
I wish I could reply to every comment, email, PayPal transaction, message and post share! Please understand that it is absolutely impossible for me to address this wonderful flood of hundreds and hundreds of wishes, blessings and statements individually. But it is very important for me to let you know, I have read every single one of them and received all of your love and energy, absorbed it, sent it to the parts of my body where its most needed and will pay it forward in the future.